The bins to the right are winter clothes and boots that I have put away. There's obviously enough space that she has a little cubby to hide away in! She was sliding the door open and closed, acting like she was getting away from it all. She also has one of her baby dolls put to bed in there with her.
I do have better pictures of the closet that are on my digital camera. I'll download them soon. I did end up giving away 3 bags of clothes. :-D
Thoughts on the weight gain:
My coworkers brought to my attention (through conversation) that I haven't taken my thyroid medication since February. That was one of those proverbial "slap to the head". Oops. What was I thinking! So hopefully, with beginning the medication again over the weekend and being more careful about what I eat, and the running, I can drop it back off.
I also am hoping that I haven't really messed up. Fact is that I have a "goiter" or a mass that has grown on my thyroid. Since I've been taking the thyroid medication, it hasn't grown. The doctor says I can have it removed, but if it's not growing, I don't have to have it removed. So... I'm hoping the lack of medication hasn't messed with the status of that. I'd hate to have to have surgery on my neck because I got lazy about taking a simple daily medication.
Thoughts on MOM GUILT:
Why do we do it to ourselves? I got a text message from the ex last night asking "Do you want to pick Jules up from school tomorrow?"
I had JUST made plans to go to the gym immediately after work.
Background: Tuesday is normally one of my days to have the girl, but because her dad has to go on a short business trip on Thursday (his day), we swapped.
Immediate thoughts:
- wondering if I'd be short changing her by not spending 20 minutes in the car with her on a Tuesday evening before her swim lessons... or if it would be that big of a deal if I had him go ahead and pick her up.
- Does he need me to pick her up? Can he do it?
- Is he just being lazy and doesn't want to drive to the daycare when swimming is back toward his work?
- Does he think he's being nice by offering to let me pick her up and giving me that 20 minutes in the car with her since it's my regular night and she's been with him since Sunday afternoon?
- Am I a bad mom if I choose to go to the gym instead of the 20 minutes with her in the car?
So... I decided that it probably wasn't a big deal. I texted him asking if he NEEDED me to pick her up. No... he was just trying to be nice, he can get it.
So I'm going to the gym tonight. Then to watch her swim lessons.
WHY DO I MAKE THESE THINGS INTO SUCH A BIG DEAL???
4 comments:
"hot" thyroid masses can be treated with low doses of I-131.
Yeah, apparently this isn't that kind. I have a friend who has taken the I-131 and I spoke with my doctor about it.
Well from what I’ve read, if nodule shows normal uptake on the scan (but is not “cold”) it is possible to make this nodule “hotter” by using Thyrogen injection. Then RAI treatment follows up. Also, if nodule has cystic component then this is treated by ethanol sclerotherapy (PEI), which cost a lot less then surgery.
Sorry for sticking my nose into your blog:)
hope you get your thyroid under control and that no future surgery is necessary. Wow, scary stuff.
I'm the same way with mom guilt. THE.SAME.WAY. We have a tendency to overanalyze stuff. What I've learned is to ask myself what my kids will remember 5 years from now. Will she really remember that I had her dad pick her up on such and such day? probably not. Will she remember if I missed her dancing performance? absolutely. So, I try to prioritize that way. I'm glad you decided to go to the gym.
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